Thankful…

2012 wasn’t the most auspicious year on record. At least, it didn’t start out that way. My theme song for the year had the refrain, “I am going to make it through this year, if it kills me.” And life threw a lot of icky things my way. My last trip to PA for my MFA was a trip fraught with tears and struggles; in February my beloved cat, Myboyfriend, died and shortly afterwards so did my grandma Evelyn. I was working to support myself, but bills piled up and everything seemed just too much. I grieved with my best friends over too many personal things to count. There wasn’t anything that made it the worst year ever (though, death and loss are always big culprits here), but it was a hard one and I’ve struggled through most of it.

Yet, through it all I’m thankful. Genuinely and amazingly grateful. There are many things in my life that bring constant joy and strength through every storm life throws at me. It’s extremely cliche to list the things you’re thankful for, and some people think it’s just hollow bs. But honestly, sometimes it’s the only thing that gets me through.

1. My family. I’m grateful for parents who love me unconditionally and support me. This year I’ve reminded how important that is and what happens when you don’t have that. Grateful for a baby sister who I love and am happy to hear from whenever she and I can connect in our busy schedules. Blessed to have two adorable, intelligent, healthy nieces who I got to spend time with this year and who I miss with all my heart when they’re away from me.

2. Old friends. Growing up I never had a strong group of friends. I was always a bit of the odd man out in every social situation. My adult life, especially after finding the Whedon fandom, has been blessed with a large group of friends, including my best friends (Kim & Emma and third best friend Terin) and close friends both far and near (Lisa, Clay, Brian, Nutty, Robin H., Heidi & Kathy, just to name a few). Even my online friends who communicate with me daily through Facebook and Twitter are such a key part of my life and I’m so thankful for all of them (and you’re probably one of them if you’re reading this). They inspire me, push me, support me, and remind me of what’s important.

3. New friends. There’s so many new friends I made this year! I’m thankful for you too! Especially the new friends I’ve made at work. It’s such a blessing to find a group of people that you genuinely like and very rare to find a group you like immediately. They make every work day fun!

4. Books. Books have been a central part of my life since I could remember. A great book can transport you beyond yourself. I’m thankful for writers, for editors, and all the people that work on books. You make my life amazing and bring my favorite fictional friends to life. They teach me to be better and open me up to whole new worlds.

5. Starbucks. Okay, it’s cheesy and corporate and weird to put a place down on your list of things you’re thankful for, but it’s true. Starbucks is one of those places that instantly puts me in a better mood. It’s a treat to step into one, order my drink and enjoy it. I’ve written so much of my work in Starbucks, I’ve had so many great meetings and conversations in them, I can plot out my day by Starbucks. I’m grateful for the store.

6. Music. Music gets me through anything. I love listening to it, singing it, sharing it, and playing it again and again. From the daily habit of listening to music on my commute to singing worship music to commune with my God, music keeps me sane and grounded. One of my best investments this year was paying for Spotify – so I can have it on my phone any time I want.

7. Joss Whedon. Okay, again… probably a bit cheesy, but 2012 was the year of Joss Whedon. Finally the world knows what we, Whedon fans, already knew – Joss is amazing. Between Avengers and Cabin In The Woods it was nice to finally go, “I TOLD YOU!” Besides, without Joss Whedon I wouldn’t have my current group of friends OR my new job!

8. Laughter. This year I worked briefly teaching writing to kids after school. There was a lot of challenges because they didn’t want to be there, they didn’t like to write, and they especially didn’t like to be in class after a day full of classes. The one thing that kept us all going was laughter. Everything had a funny edge to it and the things they came up with were priceless. I have friends who always make me laugh, who can turn a bad situation into a run-on joke. My friend Lisa is the best at it. After frustrating days at work we can both make each other laugh and that’s important.

9. Jack. Cats have been integral parts of my life for so long the brief time that I had no cat (during college) was hard. Jack, who I got in 2009, really helped this year. He’s constantly wanting to snuggle and be petted or paid attention to. He’s a joy to come home to and a comfort when life seems too depressing for words.

10. Health. Sometimes I take it for granted, but this has been a relatively healthy year for me (other than this cold I have right now). After having years that weren’t so healthy (with hospital stays and doctors visits), I’m super grateful.

11. Sherlock Holmes. Sherlock Holmes on my TV with two different shows? And on the big screen? 9 year old me is so happy.

12. Writing. It’s my passion and I love it.

13. A job I love doing. Seriously, I really love working for Geek & Sundry. Doing social media and marketing for a company that I believe in, that I already was a giant fan of, and that has amazing people I work with – dream come true.

14. The election being over.

15. Friends. I know they’re on here twice already, but having friends is really a blessing and I’m so thankful for all of you who are my friends. I’m a blessed, blessed Tabz.

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One Comment

  1. Posted November 22, 2012 at 8:31 pm | Permalink

    I’m thankful for you too TABZ!

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